When I think about this non-year, it seems to me that all my existential rivers led to one theme: TRUST. I trusted Eric and married him. Then a new, post-arrest Eric was presented to me. Between embracing insanity and distrust, my mind quickly shifted to distrust. My family failed and attacked me. More than that, […]
It all boils down to trust – part 7 (final) Read More »
This year I have come to terms with my shortcomings. Maybe my mother is right and I am somewhere in the autistic spectrum. It is not that obvious, though. Total Aspies don’t appreciate nonsense and word jokes as much as I do. But I am completely incompetent with sub-text and hidden agendas. I’m either too
Education and being an educator – part 6 Read More »
Mindfulness, meditation and other such tools are emerging as an important alternative to PTSD treatment and management. However, a number of victims cannot handle the challenge because of the intruding thoughts. It is possible that powerlifting my offer an alternative to “traditional” meditation.
The PTSD and suicide risk veteran cause – part 5 Read More »
Along the year, I had the misfortune of observing the worst of what powerlifting became as a sport. While there are still honorable projects – whether federative, companies, gyms, educational initiatives – I would say most lack honesty, credibility, and, most of all, trustworthiness. I learned and witnessed things that I wish I never had.
Powerlifting: dishonor, doubt and the first bomb-out. Brewing a new beginning – part 4 Read More »
But what about what created the conditions for all of this to happen? The first model I had for what happened, the only possible one given the information I had, deconstructed itself. The evidence against the psychopathic con artist I had married slowly melted. First was my realization that the first “solid witnesses” were blatantly
The deconstruction of a model: what really happened? – part 3 Read More »
Emotional invalidation is one of the most common forms of abuse in families, but not only restricted to this context. The impact of emotional invalidation is indelible. Done systematically on a child, it will shape the way he/she reacts to any and every personal relationship
The year that never started: destruction, betrayal and surviving it all – part 2 Read More »
I got a rain check for 2016. We’ll start over in 2017. The Gregorian year has only an indirect determinant effect on what happens to us. The only reason it does is that institutional life is regulated by it: taxes are paid by April; end of the year Holidays separate the Fall academic semester from
Staring into the abyss: 2016, the year that never started Read More »
